Poems

Be in the moment!

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My first step out of my bed
makes my mind run ahead;
Planning things that I need to do
Wishing I had already done some yesterday too
I hurry, I scramble, I get the children out of bed
I prod them, I scold them and threaten to leave them instead.
My mind is in a panic now
Thinking of all the things I need to get done.
I drop them off to school in a hurry
And press the accelerator and zoom
Stuck in traffic I cuss the world

The rain, the thunder which is adding to the fuel.
I take a deep breath and sigh
And look out of my window to see a smile.
A toothless grin so innocent and without guile
Jolts me back to the present moment without strife.
Bringing me memories of bygone years of my children.
A tear creeps up, a sorrow takes hold thinking of how I never enjoy
The small special moments that make my everyday.

The laughter of my children, the sound of chirping birds, the shapes of those clouds
That linger on the sky.
I vowed to myself to be more aware of those simple pleasures,
To be in the moment and not stress the little things.
For things that I did are not written on my grave
But whom I loved and leave behind will be those who say my name.

Poems

A second chance…

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A little sunshine peaked through my window,
Marking the dawn of a brand new day.
I sighed and I whined to get up from my cozy bed
Wishing I had another hour instead.
Hated that I had to go to a job I disliked
Thinking about my boss made my blood spike.
Complained that I had to wash all the dishes,
Felt disgusted looking at the laundry and the other messes.
I got into my car thinking how my life sucked.
Feeling I was the only one stuck in muck.

Little did I realize that my day was going to turn upside down.
Giving me all the more reasons to frown.

Lying on the hospital bed sterile and grey,
My foot stuck on a metal rod and medicines filling my bedside tray.
My mind made me go through all the yesterday’s.
All the grumbling and whining I had done brought me to shame.
I wished I was back huddled in my cozy bed all safe
I promised God that I would pray each day to get his grace.
To appreciate the things that I had without complain.
And to give up the things that are too bane.
To live each day as if there’s no tomorrow
Because when death is at your door step there is no time to weep in sorrow;
Plant a smile on my face and spread love in leaps and bounds.
For at the end of the day it is how many people’s heart you touched that counts.
Please God… give me a second opportunity to do it right…
I promise that you would not have any regrets because I will try with all my might.
To be the person you wanted me to be;
Loving, joyful and happy and just be me!