Alarm goes off but my sleepy head wants to snooze some more,
“I am on a diet” I say, and instead stuff my mouth with some chocolate dripping smores
I know I need to exercise to keep healthy and fit
But the comfort of the couch is pain-free and I instead sit
Seeing paint and brushes, I yearn to make art
Remembering my childhood, I glow from my heart
Then I tell myself, It’s not like I’m Picasso, who is going to care.
It’s better to stay the same, instead of provoking glares.
And promise myself, that I will start afresh soon
It’s been twenty years, and I’m yet to find time to do the things I should do
Why is that I resist that which would make me feel good?
Is there a conspiracy again all my “Shoulds”?
I look on my shoulder and see an evil grin,
Telling me I finally found out my evil twin.
I nip him and put him in a box with a tight lid
And say to myself, that I will start today instead.
Steven Pressfield in his book “The War of Art: Winning the Inner Creative Battle” says there is a force just like gravity in this universe “Resistance” which restricts us from doing the work that we came here to do. It was nice to finally have a name for all the times, we have not done the things that we know that we should do, but never do it anyway. It comes in many forms he says, as Procrastination, lethargy, excuses and it is our job to recognize it and do that which our heart tells us to do. In the end, at least we are happier that we overcame resistance instead of feeling miserable about all the things we never did.
I can relate to Resistance! I am an old pro at it! Your post is a timely reminder to take care of myself, get some exercise, paint something! If not for the A to Z blog I’m not sure I’d be doing much writing LOL. I think I’ll go take a walk! Blessings.